Ah Hell, Gary. Sure sorry to hear that, my friend. But sometimes, if you love them enough, you have to put them down. It's a real hard decision to make but, not to do it when they're suffering is just plain selfish.
When we had to put Addy, Miss Linda's black lab, down 4 years ago, Miss Linda had her cremated and her ashes spread on our property. The rest of our family will eventually join her out there.
Now, it just takes time.
Gary