The Results Are in.....

[bluewolf]

been meanin to git on here and letcha all know what happened at the specialist

I do not have an auto-immune disease, I tested positive because of an antibiotic I have to take..so we got that switched ASAP (prolonged use could cause drug induced Lupus)

And I ain't gonna die on y'all anytime soon

I am just suffering from severe PTSD due to alot of things (life in general) and

severe anxiety disorder

been doin a little research on the subject and to tell ya the truth I had no idea how bad/sickly it can make you

Still feelin like crap (currently suffering an ear infection in my left ear which is messin with the whole left side of my face,especialy my eye)

but am feeling better knowin I ain't dyin...I ain't fraid ta jest not ready yit

Have absolutly no appetite..I fix somethin that sounds good but don't want it after it's done

so why bother, I have so much prepaired food in the freezer could probably eat for two months just on what's already cooked

just been eatin enough to sustain life altho in my opinion I have enough blubber to not have to worry for a while *tee hee* but to keep BF offin my back.......

I have been lurkin tho..you folks shore do have alot of good vittles goin on!!

Don't mind my "southern"  BF has been facinated with watchin Gunsmoke on my Wii

and we watch about 3 hours of it every day..plus he just found "The Virginian" so gettin alot of that here of late and people wonder why I watch so much gore..............

Keep on smokin!!!

 

[alblancher]

Hope you feel better soon.  Sometimes I wake up in the morning and the only way I know I'm still kicken is when I try to roll out of bed and the bones start creaking.  Couple of cups of coffee later I'm back to my old cantankerous self.  Get well and I find it hard to believe that you can get the smoker going and not get hungry!

Al

 

[meateater]

Hope you feel better soon. 

 

[Bearcarver]

Hang in there Wolfie !!!

It helps to talk to people about it. Took me a long time to learn that.

I too am an old Western Buff:

Through the miracle of Blue Ray streaming, I have watched all of the "Cheyennes", all of the "Wagon Trains", all of the "Have Gun Will Travel", and I'm working on "The Virginian" now.

Also---not a western but all of the "Airwolf".

Take Care,

Bear

 

[bluewolf]

Hang in there Wolfie !!!

It helps to talk to people about it. Took me a long time to learn that.

Well my problem is that I can't get a therapist to monitor my progress

.

Also---not a western but all of the "Airwolf".

That's funny...I been watchin "Airwolf" myself

Take Care,

Bear

Thanks Bear...I'ma tryin...............

 

[SmokinAl]

Hope you feel better soon. Gotta get that appetite back, & start smoking again.

 

[alaskanbear]

We're all behind you with support Wolfie, as not a single one of us here is without our own set of stress causers. I sincerely hope that the new meds will help ya and uplift you into good health once again.  And, as Bear so aptly siad it--talk it out, I for one have braod shoulders and a caring heart.  Anytime..

Rich

 

[beer-b-q]

Hurry up and get well, we are all pulling for you...

 

[bluewolf]

Thanks All!!! ((((HUGGLES))))

I won't ever be well, I have been carrying my secret for almost 22 years and it has taken it's toll but with some therapy I might be able to "heal some" I probably will still have the nightmares, but with proper "psych meds" I could possible lead a better life than I have been, altho my physical impediments are always gonna be there and get worse

People refer to me as "fiesty" instead of telling the truth and saying I am "short fused"

I really want a therapist to talk to and get some help, but I have been trying for a year and a half with no luck,

I am in the middle of typing a letter to my congressman, doubt it will do much good tho

if I thought they wouldn't "lock me away" I would throw a fit to get some attention butt....

I don't know what's up with my appetite..stuff sounds/looks scrumptious but if I smell it

I don't want it....Right now we have "Greekfest" going on..I would love to get a fresh homade gyro, but know I won't eat it...I been livin on balogna and fried egg samiches for the better part of three months, just enough to sustain life....

I haven't even wanted Mac&Cheese, which is my favoritist comfy food..BF knows I'm sick if I don't even want that......

It will all change around eventually......*shrug*

 

[africanmeat]

Get well soon we are waiting for you . we all behind you