Today was the dayJust wanted to say thank you so much to all of my fellow SMF'ers.
Grandpa passed away this afternoon. My brother called me this morning and said "it's time" but it's like he's waiting for something...maybe it's you." Wow, thanks for the pressure bro. I'd already decided that I'd said my goodbyes and told him how much I loved him.
I didn't want to be there. But my guilt got the better of me and I decided to go down after lunch. As I walked in the room it was just he and my dad. My dad turned around and saw me and broke down. He said it just happened. He's gone.
Maybe he was waiting on me. I don't know. I guess nobody does. But I do know that my dad and I have never had an embrace like that. As much as I am sad, I am also relieved. No more "dying" for him (I wanted to say "pain" but I guess he really wasn't in pain since they had him pretty doped up), no more waiting for us.
I feel for my dad as he's an only child. So all this has been on him to deal with. As I was leaving he and my mom were headed upstairs to the assisted living area to tell my grandmother. She's recently been put on Hospice too. Dad doesn't think she's got a lot of time left either since she's really not eating anything.
So keep us in your thoughts, especially my dad and now my grandma.
Yes, Bill in MN, I am a man of faith. Often times it's tested and I start to question, but then I just catch myself praying even more. Thank you for your thoughts and prayers. They are greatly appreciated.